Happy Monday friends!! I hope you all had a great + relaxing weekend with your family and friends. This week is baby week + we have been running around like crazy trying to get everything ready! Only 3 more days!!
So, if you have been around here awhile you know by now that one of my pregnancy/maternity style staples are dresses. They are just the most comfortable and easy thing to throw on. This dress is by far one of the best maternity dresses ever! The fabric + stretch is amazing. The length, thickness, cut, sleeve length etc it’s all right on! (ps. I am not being paid to say or write this…these are all my own opinions!) And I could go on and on about this style of this dress. Can we talk about these new chunky heels I got awhile ago?! I usually don’t love the chunky heel but after seeing these on my sister I had to snag a pair + I am all about comfort and being able to keep up with my little people and I totally can in these shoes. Hope you enjoy these fun finds!
So how is it the weekend already?! These last few weeks have just flown by for me and my family!! So if you follow my on Instagram you’ll already know I caved and bought my favorite non-maternity body-con dress in purple! I couldn’t resist…Haha. This dress is seriously so comfortable + I love the bright color for summer. And since I can wear it after baby…I didn’t feel so bad PLUS its only $48 and you can not beat that!! Also, these coral wedges have been a staple for me and will continue through out the entire summer. They are the perfect height and don’t hurt my feet by the end of the day!!
AND…did I tell you that baby is for sure coming next THURSDAY, July 2nd?!! I can’t believe it’s almost here! Honestly, it still doesn’t seem real…like we are going to be blessed with another baby soon. I will be having a scheduled induction because baby is measuring 2 weeks bigger + with some of the other problems we have had this pregnancy my doctor just feels like this is the best thing for us. Well, I hope you all have a great Friday + a fabulous weekend!!
So Joe finally had a full day off…in lets say weeks + we knew exactly what we wanted to do…have a BEACH DAY!! It had been so long since we had gone with just our little family to the beach + it was just what we needed before baby comes in 8 days! We headed down to Newport Beach this time, as we like to switch it up between all the fun beaches down here. The weather was perfect, the beach was not to crowded and the kids were pretty good…with only one or two melt downs. Haha. The older kids love to boogie board, and Hayden still hates to touch the water. Right before we left I kinda drug her in (nicely of course) and within five minutes we couldn’t get her out of the water. I swear that’s how it always goes. I hope you guys have a fabulous Wednesday and thank you so much for stopping by our little space here!!
Happy Monday!! I hope everyone had a great weekend! Ours was crazy with no dad for 4 days + trying to get ready for baby. So the 4th of July is one of my favorite holidays! I just love dressing everyone all festive! Haha and you know the husband just loves it. Here are some of my Fourth of July inspiration outfits for the whole family…and yes we will have baby by then so I had to add he/she in. Enjoy!!
Happy Friday Friends!! So I am finally getting around to posting this amazing dress that is NON-maternity!! It says maternity on Nordstrom’s website but when I actually got the dress from the designer its just a one-size fits all dress and NOT maternity. Anyways, I just absolutely love how versatile it is. I love a dress/outfit that you can change a few accessories and it can be a whole new outfit. I was able to dress up this dress just by adding some nude heels and some extra jewelry + my favorite Micheal Kors Purse for a night out with the husband. Then all I had to do was lose a little jewelry, add some flat sandals and of course my favorite jean jacket + a hat and I was able to wear this dress the next day with my girlfriends + little people for lunch! Easy as that. Find a few staple plain pieces and dress them up or down with accessories.
Also there are some FABULOUS SALES going on right now that I know you don’t want to miss!
Happy Tuesday!! I hope everyone had a great weekend! I can’t believe it’s already almost Father’s Day + half of June is over?! Seriously, where is the time going? Anyone else feel like this summer is just going to fly by? Anyway, here are just a few of the things I’ve been eyeing for our daddy for Father’s Day this year. I swear he always need a new wallet, tie or pair of shoes since the last year. What are some of your fun and different gift ideas for your man, dad etc in your life?
Happy Friday friends!! So did I blow you all away by finally wearing some jeans and not just a dress?! Haha! Yes, I was finally able to find some comfortable + stylish maternity jeans, and I am beyond thrilled with them!! I know I’ll also be wearing these jeans a lot after baby as I won’t be able to fit back into my normal jeans for awhile. Also…HUGE NEWS (well kinda) my favorite Michael Kors purse is back in stock!! I have searched and searched for you guys and I was finally able to find it. So if you have been eyeing it don’t wait! This purse sold out on my three times before I was finally able to snag it. Also, I was able to snag the pink wallet which I know you’ll love as well! Thank you all so much for your support here in this space!! It truly means so much to me!! I hope you all have a great weekend!! Enjoy!!
With baby less than 4 weeks away I thought I better start making some adjustments to the nursery. Haha. Which is a shared room…so I’m not sure how it’s going to work. I am dying over all these amazing nurseries! I don’t know how people decide on a color scheme. Here are just a few of the nurseries I have been dying over on my Pinterest account. I’ve also been complying everything that goes in them and trying to find the better deals. I’ve linked everything I have so far. Tell me some of your favorite places to shop for baby’s nursery! Happy Monday!!
First off, I want to thank everyone for all the support on my last post! You honestly brought me to tears with the supportive response…so thank you from my whole heart!! I have read and reread all of your comments here + Instagram and have appreciated all the emails. I just want you to know that I am truly gratefully for this amazing community + your support towards our family!!
So, I just want to make clear…these pics were taken a few weeks ago and I have more then doubled in size!! Truthfully. You’ll die with the next post! Haha. Anyways, this peach striped dress is from Target + (they are having FREE SHIPPING all week) It doesn’t get better then that!!! I know we all have a love for Target + now I love their maternity section and especially Liz Lange items. The pricing is right on and will not break the bank + the quality is great, as all of my dresses and other clothes have washed up fabulously!! Trust me, you definitely need to snag a few of these dresses! Plus…I have been on the look out for the perfect straw hat and this one is it!! Not too big or too floppy and I love the little pop of coral! Thanks for stopping by. I hope you enjoy your Friday + have a fabulous weekend!!
This post has been a long time coming. I have thought about how I would put this all into words, but nothing ever seems to sound right or I just plain stop and say, I can’t do it…I’m not ready to go there just yet. Well, here I am. Finally going to write down my feelings, hardships, thoughts + blessings of the last year and all we have gone through trying to get baby #4 here. In some way I am hoping if it just helps one person then it was totally worth the tears and heartache of reliving all the pain + loss. I never could imagine how lonely going through a miscarriage would be…let alone 3 miscarriages. My life has been changed immensely from these events and I feel the mercy of my Heavenly Father and the tenderness of my heart change towards anyone who has ever struggled with this.
First off, we have been so extremely blessed in being able to get pregnant right away with our three little people. I never had experienced anything hard in this area before. (and I feel beyond blessed for that) I had loved being pregnant and never skipped a beat with the first two. Life was great! Now fast-forward 8 years. I had been begging the husband for another baby. I just knew the time was right and “I” was so ready. Joe on the other hand was overwhelmed with Anesthesia Residency and was not ready to add another little one for a while. So we waited another year. During that year I started to feel uneasy about trying for another baby…like something was going to happen or go wrong. The feeling never left me, but I kept telling myself I was getting worked up for nothing. We will be fine.
November 2013…my youngest sister got married. After the beautiful ceremony we hugged each other + of course I was bawling in disbelief that she was this old. She then, immediately, asked if I had just had a miscarriage, because she had been having that the feeling for a while. I was shocked! We hadn’t even started trying and in the moment and knew it was coming. Like Heavenly Father was trying to prepare me for what I thought would be only ONE miscarriage. January 2104 came and we started trying. I was beyond nervous and just knew this was going to be one of my trials. The end of March came and we lost our first baby. The pain and emotion + feeling of loneliness was so beyond raw I thought there is no way I can get past this. But I thought I was ready, like I had some preparation from everything that had happened the few months before. I kept thinking…you knew this was going to happen so why am I having the hardest time. It didn’t help that Joe was on a 24 hr shift and I was miscarriage and trying to get the three little people feed + to bed by myself. I couldn’t stop the tears from coming, but I was tying so hard to hold it all back until the little people were in bed. I really didn’t want to alarm them or let them know something was wrong. The night was long and lonely. We still hadn’t told anyone we were pregnant so I felt like I couldn’t even call my mom. (we wait a really long time before we tell anyone we’re expecting). The next night Joe was still on a really bad shift. I lost it after the kids were down and couldn’t get my feelings in check, so the phone call to mom happened. She listened to me cry for hours and all I could think was I wanted my mom there right then to physically hold me and take this excruciating pain away. It was truly like my heart had physically broken in two.
April, so here we go again…I can do this. There is no way I am going to have a second miscarriage. First month we try. Not pregnant. Wait, this hasn’t ever happened to me before, what is going on? Second month I know we are pregnant but I refuse to take a pregnancy test, and along with that comes this sick feeling of not trusting my body. I just can’t take the test because then it is real and the chance of losing another becomes reality. I make a doctors appt, but still won’t allow myself to take the test. It’s now June and I start spotting + the panic sets in. Of course it’s two days before my doctors appt. I try talking myself out of it + this was so not happening again. But again it did and again Joe was on a 24hr shift. I have never had problems getting pregnant or carrying my babies so why now? I seriously pushed this one aside and never dealt with it…again because “maybe” I wasn’t pregnant + I never took “the test”, right? So that way it couldn’t happen. I went to my doctor’s appt two days later and well… “Yes, Kailee it did happen. This is your second miscarriage.” the doctor says. I still push it aside.
We thought we would try just one more time. I wasn’t sure I emotionally would be able to handle another loss, but at the same time I knew we just weren’t done having kids, and there was still one more baby that was supposed to come to us. We got pregnant once again, and once again I was scared out of my mind but I stayed hopeful. This time I told my mom right away and had her swear to not tell a soul. Mid August we headed on a family trip to Hawaii including my parents and siblings. I was feeling confident this pregnancy would stick. I was almost 12 weeks and thinking I was just about to that “safe” stage. Somehow the pregnancy came out while we were hiking one day on the trip. My sisters both flipped along with my dad and the realization started to set in for me, that this might really happen. I still didn’t want my kids to know (as my oldest took the first miscarriage hard + I still had not told them about the 2nd one), but somehow they overheard later that day. Their screams of excitement + happiness I will never forget. It was such a sweet moment and I just knew our baby was finally coming to us.
We got home from Hawaii and I could hardly wait for my first doctors appt. in two weeks. Two weeks came and so did the spotting. I was devastated. I was 14 weeks and miscarriage yet again, and once again Joe was on 24 hr call. I was starting to lose my faith in god. Honestly, how could this happen 3 times + my husband not be here for any of them? What had I done wrong to have to go through this? After 3 consecutive days of seeing the doctor she decided a D&C was the only way to go since I had not yet passed the baby. I was still in shock that this was happening. It was like I was stuck in this dark hole and I’d never be able to get out. The day of surgery came + the pain inside me made my whole body ache. Walking up to the mother and baby unit was the worst. I lost it…knowing I was there losing my baby and all the other women were there holding their new sweet little ones. I couldn’t help but feel so bitter and upset. I didn’t want to feel this way and that hurt me even more.
That week after the D&C was a long week. For some reason my mom was not able to come down and joe had to go back to work the next day. I didn’t want to get out of bed, I didn’t want to wake up from the night or naps because then I would have to feel, and I was worried about being alone again. But then something happened…I had been praying harder then I have ever prayed before. I prayed daily, hourly that the bitterness would go away, and that I could just feel some sort of comfort, and that I could be grateful for the three little people I had. My soul still yearned for that baby, but I could soon feel the comfort of my Heavenly Father like I have never felt before. It was like I knew I was supposed to go through this so that I could feel what so many other women feel, that I could truly feel that sympathy and know + be there for others that have had to deal with this same thing. The love from friends near and far, some that I had never meet in person, family and church members was beyond any other love I had felt. My heart was so filled with the love and compassion that others had shown me and my family. I was staring to see the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father and I was filled with peace for those next few days.
Fast forward months later. We took a break, started doing our research, and working with the doctors bi-weekly + plus a great friend told me about progesterone and we mentioned it to our doctor. Once again we were pregnant, but this time we felt ready. This current pregnancy started out as TWINS and we ended up losing one. Once again I was torn, confused, and frustrated, but once again the lord was there to get us through it. Here we are almost 36 weeks along, and I am still scared every. single. day. that something wrong could possibly happen + plus that fear of seeing blood after I use the restroom still looms over me. But I have come to realize that I am not alone. There are a lot of other women going through this same thing, or still stuck at the beginning were I was last year. My heart aches for you as I now know the pain and loneliness that comes along with miscarriage. I am just so grateful to other women who shared their stories. The comfort it brought me in those dark moments I can never thank them enough. I am hoping that our story can help comfort maybe just one person going through this difficult time in their life. Know that I am praying for you nightly and think about you daily and you are not alone.
Thank you so much for your love and daily support of our family through this online + social media world. Your comments and kindness always add sweetness to our day!